In this I am not alone. I've heard from many mothers that the second child is a bit scarier. You are going into this knowing just how hard it is sometimes. You know what sleeplessness feels like, you've held and cajoled in crankiness, sickness and all sorts. You know that teeth are a cruel form of punishment. You know how much labour really does hurt. You have a better appreciation of things that are happening and therefore a greater knowledge of all that can go wrong.
Last week, we went into the hospital to check things out. All's well, we just wanted to make sure. One very good thing came from that visit. The fear went away. Sitting in the hospital with a rather excited husband (he was suddenly hit by the thoughts that come with the joy of a new baby), I knew that it was all going to happen. So what if I'm not ready? So what if it's hard and our well working schedule goes bye-bye?
This is an adventure and a fantastic thing that is happening. Our baby is a blessing from God and He will sustain us through all the sleepless nights, the frustrations and woes. One look at my eldest, grinning at me is enough to remind me that it's certainly all worth it!